went out with jiaqi and althea today. yupps. and joined the guys jonana junwei hsienliang and ahma for movie, madagascar. yupps.

the movie was short larhs. haha.

and after that we went to take neos. yupps. and walked arnd. yea. hahah.

ohya. next time if you go to tm neoprint shop, see the cashiers' butts when they squat down. it's disgusting like shit. zhou should be there mans. xD

and jonana made me bring my maths worksheets for no use. BOOHOO.

anyway, yesterday was training course. last training with our ncos. =(((

and i was a total disappointment yesterday. boohoo. ='((

a series of unfortunate events happened to me yesterday. HAHA.

i forgot to bring my wallet when i left the house yesterday. and rushed home to take. and was like quite late.

and had to dig my bag for squad list for xinhui. and kiwi and cloth for huilin and huiling. haha.

went to change alone. boohoo.

went to report. didnt know who to greet. cos didnt know who are the SIs yet.

had uniform check. check untiu halfway went to take report books. my report book not there. boohoo. and had to collect heritage tour consent forms. jingwen didnt bring. and mr yeo said that there's 3. but we only have 2. boohoo.

so changed out and had to report to CI. yupp. so i went to report. waited and knocked the door outside np room. and jiaming sir suddenly opened the door while i was knocking. scared me like siao. was like in a lost of words. =( was scolded for dunnoe how to report. it wasnt my fault btw. haha. reported again. thank god i reported correctly. but was scolded cos the squad wasnt there. =(

so sprint back to the squad. the foyer's floor was WET. VERY WET. and i slipped and fell on my right side. knocked my head on the ground. neck pained throughout the activity. stood up. right side of my body NUMB. boohoo. and stiu ran all the way to np room. when my leg is like NUMB. and head giddy. BOOHOO.

our squad was scolded by yuelin sir for using eyepower instead of hands during atc. well, it's true larh. we shouldnt compare ourselves with the other schools. we are considered good compared to them le. but this shouldnt be our attitude larhs. and dunmanhigh girls were almost doing everything larhs. =DD the guys, maybe got vs ba. yeah. but as a squad, we should get scolded too larhs.

and was pumped in the bball court. yar. and cos my right hand was pain. so i used my left hand. and my hand SLIPPED on the sand and my whole left palm was BURNING larh. cos of the friction. and warmups for pumpings, i was pumping on my left FINGERS. damn pain larh. and went to wash. but the effect lasted for less than one sec larh. =((

pt. neck pain. wtf larh. i hate this larh. stomach dunnoe got what fucking problem. had to fall out. BOOHOO. and i cant concentrate during pt. cos my head was PAIN. as in giddy. banana i can say mosquito. PRO.

fall out. went to fall in again. get scolded again. =(

changed. and my neck was damn pain larh. can cry de loh. as in the nerve is like pulling and you cant lift your head up. and need support. fuck my neck. HAHA.

was forced to fall out. BOOHOO. and fall in cos yufang need tissue. and i just happen to see the squad. and nco ask me to fall in. so i fall in. haha. and fall out cos my beret dropping. =((

and luckily i saluted correctly and greeted correctly. phew.

and had changing parade. and yongzhang sir came up with this new changing parade, "shuttle run changing parade". was quite fun larh. haha. was funny though.

and it was lunch. was chicken rice. didnt eat much larh. drank lots of water. haha. im scary. boohoo.

had lecture for orienteering after that. went to report. i think i greeted yuhuan ma'am 4 to 6 times in total. and she's nice cos she didnt scold me for running here and there. =)

jiaming sir and qiwen sir are funny. haha. wanted to report early and they said 10 mins break. haha. cute and funny ncos we have. =DD

had lecture later. the theory part was rather boring. butbut, when it came to the drill part, i was damn nice larh. i wasnt sleepy at all. HAHA.

and we learnt this damn sehh command. =DD dari kanan/kiri, tukar haluan kakanan/ kiri (dan berhenti), tukar. youknowyouknow. that check check command. when we always say that it's damn sehh when sec3squad were doing. haha.

missed the first part of the drills cos needa take report book. and mine wasnt in the general office. so ran to staff room1 and to staff room2 and to pe room to find mr siva. and went to general office again cos i cant find him. and the lady called him. and he scolded me like shit larh. he has really got bullshit larh.

i didnt go for ptm cos i had atc. and it was a valid excuse. my parents didnt go cos they were busy. they were working. they cant possibly force my parents to go ritex. and ms sandy said that we will get it back after training course. every class got back except for 2h. BOOHOO.

anyway, my mum called the go and demanded that she wants the report book. and that she will just go to the go and take cos she's busy. haha. so she didnt get to see mr siva and talk to him. goodness.

so fall in back. and the squad got one more column. and i was like sorry sorry sorry. and i think it's because of me, we needa run to the lamp post and pump. sorry sorry sorry. =(( was like almost wanted to cry larh. boohoo. and my beret came off again. wtf. BOOHOO.

and drill session was funny and nice. =D though with all our mistakes. cos our ncos used chinese to give instructions. haha. nicenice. dressing-- chuan zuo. lamp post-- deng zhu. hahah. funny funny.

but there's serious times too larh. haha. we wanted to extend the drill session but we must have interactive session cos it's our last activity. =((((

the interactive session is more interactive than others. it was the last one. last interactive session. sobsob. i miss our ncos. it's like almost one year or about 10 months le. suddenly they have to leave us. i doubt we know our way without their guide. all of the ncos helped me in one way or another. and definitely helped the squad a lot.

xiangqi ma'am- she's nice. she always answers all my questions. and try to help our squad a lot a lot.

shuqi ma'am- could still remember the times when i fall out, she brought me to the first aid room and asked if im ok. and she has a very very nice and sweet smile. i will definitely miss her. =(

qiwen sir- his lame jokes. we will definitely miss them. his seriousness during drills. giving us chances after chances. and yet we disappointed him. the times when he asked me to fall out. though i insised that i dont want. it's for my own good after all. =(

yongzhang sir- the times when he and qiwen sir crack lame jokes. and it never fails to make the squad laugh. at times to joke, he seems more like a friend than a senior to us, or rather, most of the guys. haha.

jiaming sir- his seriousness. and the fierceness in him during drills. always reminding us to straighten our fingers. i will never ever forget that. the times when he sabo-ed weiteng for his xiaocao. that shows the funny side of him.

and many other ncos. maybe shall blog again after pop or what. and i dowan it to come.

wenhao told me that pop is coming. the only activity left is talentime. lets not disappoint them. and pray hard that our squad get in. =D

anyway, had a short drill session in the bball court. the changing session before that, i changed real fast. dunnoe why. perhaps that's the last changing session we are gonna have le ba. and we didnt want to disappoint our ncos. and had parade in the foyer. and dismissed. no more trainings with our ncos. =((( i wanna cry. =(

and i realised that i cried a lot of times yesterday.
after reporting to ci. [i felt so shibai. though it wasnt fully my fault.]
when i fell down. [i felt so desperate. and that i am useless. when the cleaners are kb-ing and everything. was so scared that the squad will blame me for being slow.]
when i fall out. [i disappoint them again. =(]
when i fall in back and caused more problems to the squad. [eg. tukar haluan command. i joined in that means one more column. and it means more flopping. and it seems that i caused the squad to get punished. cried like hell and apologized like hell during punishments.]
when i failed to collect all the consent forms and pass down the message about np textbk.
the awol cases. although i dont know who the hell has the excuse letters. but i was there when the instructions were given. and it's like i feel so shibai not completing what the ncos want us to do. =((

training squad to be. omg. i must must train myself. someone train with me? please please please.

ms seow said that we must train for tc. yes. i MUST train. someone train with me and motivate me. please please.

and bless me that i dont injure myself anymore during np activities. i was so freakked out when pinhui say that neck injury may lead to being paralysed. =(((

and my knee's bleeding now. it's STILL bleeding. not really bleeding like siao larh. the wound will be very pain if i dont put plaster. and if i put, there will be blood on the plaster. haha. and it was since yesterday. boohoo. i dont mind a scar so that i will remind me of my carelessness. =D

i think i gtg le. yupps. bye peeps.

take care-